Free

Read this quote today, ' Remember that every man you meet fears something, loves something and has lost something'. Suddenly life's dynamics are changing...or are they really? Feel a sense of peace today. Peace of acceptance, peace of confidence and peace of No guilt. I am FREE. And no human has released me of this bondage, God and His plans have.

So finally i have now tasted fear, love and losing. and i smile. For the past few years i used to feel very alone, away from friends, from family , noone to talk to; even though everyone was really physically close to me. I could just walk into my house and feel wanted but unable to really look around and talk to anyone. I could meet a whole lot of friends and share a lot of happenings but was unable to let them in, into the wallows of my very own concerns, fears, happiness or my life. And now finally i know exactly what i need. I dont feel alone anymore.

i dont seek comfort from people around me or love from people i hold close. I still do very dearly keep them close to my heart, but i dont need them to make me feel important. For a long time i was left with feeling of being important to one too many people, and i now i am free. I am free.

I dont want to be a part of some people's lives anymore. Becos i have finally found solace in the small world i live in, where there are people whom i love who love me, and even if they dont understand my heart's cries , they are still there to carry my life's little musings with me. Peace. :)

14 months

Last Few days left. A journey of 14 months finally ( and hopefully) coming to an end. I wonder how much i have grown from time immemorial. I think it was more of an everyday struggle within me. It was nobody, no entity, no place of work that was putting down the constraints i used to feel , the pressure i used to breathe or the fear that gripped me with every task i did wrong. And if i really have to analyse what it all meant, It meant ' growing up' . Its easy to grow to grow up mentally and emotionally from a child to an Adult person, But very subtle and fast from an Adult to an ADULT. Because The jump from yesterday to today is deep rooted in what is offered to us around us.
These months have taught me a lot of patience. Perserverance pays. Yes it does but only if you find out ways for you to be rewarded. If i persevere, i also perspire to any option, any outlet for my reason to persevere to gain form and actually happen.
These months have taught me to not reveal that i fear. Even if i do fear from the deepest depths of my heart, i must still act as brave as i can. More than half of my problems end if i only show some brevity.
These months have taught me to keep my side without any fault, sincerity generally helps you with that. When there isnt anything you have done wrong, dont take the blame and dont take work that you think people are pushing on you.
These months have given me the biggest gift ever. My Confidence. Restored and Grown. If i can withstand these trying times of people i dont relate to or i dont care about, i can withstand more than i think.
Goodbye.

Forrest Gump

Watched this movie today and it really gave me all my answers especially the one i was asking Rahul Bose the other day at a training workshop. He probably didn't understand my question or maybe I didn't really explain it well. So anyway i didnt get my answer and God works in mysterious ways, He made sure i watched this movie today ( which happened by chance) and here i am feeling overwhelmed, impressed and little light at heart.

The movie is a story of a person who lives life without giving it much thought and yet with as much meaning as he can lend to it. He loves and cares , he's scared and sometimes angry, he's fearless and kind. He's innocent and confident. The best thing is he just glides through life without ever letting anything negative ever come in his way, He doesn't take criticism seriously and follows his heart.

You will probably feel im just giving you some cliched statements and advices but i loved the movie so much and it really touched my heart, and so i would just like to randomly talk abt a few realisations i had during the movie.

Most of us usually get real bogged down with our rational part of the brain, more so the part which tells us how practical or bad it could be or why its not such a good idea. Most of the times, if u think u like it, just do it. Who cares if u fail at it, at least u wont end up wondering 'What if ?'

If you dont hurt people knowingly, if you laugh well, smile all the time, do good, deal with whatever comes your way and make the best of what God has given you, there is no turning back and there is no failure.