Who am i ?

Got a good lesson yesterday from a friend.Needed that one from a long time. Sometimes you just need to be happy without having anyone with you. And That is VERY VERY important for the soul to be liberated from dependancy and that longing for that someone to vent out our everyday defeats, long enduring struggles and fears of an extremely uncertain future to give us hope and instill faith like noone else can. And its not a great feat when u do this when u are alone, left with noone else, but when u have some souls who still care, yet u can be happy when ur with urself. You must live life with great passion and love in your heart without the fear that someone will break your trust or hurt your feelings and disappoint you. Eventually, well that will happen, or maybe not. But the point is You forgive as you journey through life, you forget some things that hurt you in the past, and sometimes you dont really forget them but you can just choose to walk away from those hurtful people or those memories. Of all the years that i have so far lived, have come face to face with affection, jealousy, anger, genuine friendship, strength of character , leadership and being a role model, importance of family, trustworthiness, love, care, selfishness, diplomacy and so many other emotions, learnings and different kinds of people who have played such an important role in my lifes story. Somehow i stand with all these , all these memories, learnings, meaningful and non-meaningful relationships, and somehow i am overwhelmed. I gather these plethora of emotions within me and i finally grow a little more today. I realise 'letting go' is what we do all the time, sometimes it must also be done when ur not ready, and sometimes is really an 'all or none principle' that works. I realise that my happiness is not dependant on whether i have someone to talk to or not ,because if i really need to talk it out , God has always taken care of it for me, have found someone or the other. I realise that real dreams are those that we dream every single day with our eyes open and it takes a lot of love in our hearts and sincerity at work to get those dreams to become our most awaited reality. I have realised that 'LOVE' is the most over-used and yet NOT the most over-rated word in this world; and most of the people at my age probably dont really know what love is anyway, yet being in the feeling of love is almost a stepping stone to getting to know what it really is. I realise that Love is what You never get, unless You GIVE it from the bottom of ur heart and from the depth of ur soul. And Love never dies. No matter what. I realise that a man's arms around me or a child in my lap do not determine how worthy i am or how happy i will be. How well i treat people close to me and those who are not determines how worthy of being a good human being i am. I realise that having thousands of 'friends' commenting on what kind of a friend i am or commenting and keeping track of my status messages doesnt give me the misconception of a social life i have so that i may feel momentary happiness and delve in artificial identity and flaunting. A cup of tea with a friend when im sick and tired in my bed is all i need to know how much more meaningfully important i am for this person rather than just another 'face' to thousands of 'hungry for news' fellas out there. And finally i realise, there is no better friend than I for myself. I could cry and get devastated if something goes horribly wrong, i could laugh and feel joy when i want to bring a smile on someone's face, i could bicker endlessly about doing something i dont wanna do, or i could pray fervently for things to change , to become much better for me than they already are . But even if i do any of these , the beauty of being ME, remains untouched, un-imaginably extraordinary and charming; not for someone else, but for me , to feel within me, and enough for me to be proud of who i am. Maybe i follow the belief, 'Love yourself and you will know what it will take to love someone'. And today i grew a little more. I realised that life's mystical beauty will always exist whether im sad or happy, alone or with loved ones, it only takes a moment to realise Who i really am.

Who am i ?

Got a good lesson yesterday from a friend.Needed that one from a long time. Sometimes you just need to be happy without having anyone with you. And That is VERY VERY important for the soul to be liberated from dependancy and that longing for that someone to vent out our everyday defeats, long enduring struggles and fears of an extremely uncertain future to give us hope and instill faith like noone else can. And its not a great feat when u do this when u are alone, left with noone else, but when u have some souls who still care, yet u can be happy when ur with urself. You must live life with great passion and love in your heart without the fear that someone will break your trust or hurt your feelings and disappoint you. Eventually, well that will happen, or maybe not. But the point is You forgive as you journey through life, you forget some things that hurt you in the past, and sometimes you dont really forget them but you can just choose to walk away from those hurtful people or those memories. Of all the years that i have so far lived, have come face to face with affection, jealousy, anger, genuine friendship, strength of character , leadership and being a role model, importance of family, trustworthiness, love, care, selfishness, diplomacy and so many other emotions, learnings and different kinds of people who have played such an important role in my lifes story. Somehow i stand with all these , all these memories, learnings, meaningful and non-meaningful relationships, and somehow i am overwhelmed. I gather these plethora of emotions within me and i finally grow a little more today. I realise 'letting go' is what we do all the time, sometimes it must also be done when ur not ready, and sometimes is really an 'all or none principle' that works. I realise that my happiness is not dependant on whether i have someone to talk to or not ,because if i really need to talk it out , God has always taken care of it for me, have found someone or the other. I realise that real dreams are those that we dream every single day with our eyes open and it takes a lot of love in our hearts and sincerity at work to get those dreams to become our most awaited reality. I have realised that 'LOVE' is the most over-used and yet NOT the most over-rated word in this world; and most of the people at my age probably dont really know what love is anyway, yet being in the feeling of love is almost a stepping stone to getting to know what it really is. I realise that Love is what You never get, unless You GIVE it from the bottom of ur heart and from the depth of ur soul. And Love never dies. No matter what. I realise that a man's arms around me or a child in my lap do not determine how worthy i am or how happy i will be. How well i treat people close to me and those who are not determines how worthy of being a good human being i am. I realise that having thousands of 'friends' commenting on what kind of a friend i am or commenting and keeping track of my status messages doesnt give me the misconception of a social life i have so that i may feel momentary happiness and delve in artificial identity and flaunting. A cup of tea with a friend when im sick and tired in my bed is all i need to know how much more meaningfully important i am for this person rather than just another 'face' to thousands of 'hungry for news' fellas out there. And finally i realise, there is no better friend than I for myself. I could cry and get devastated if something goes horribly wrong, i could laugh and feel joy when i want to bring a smile on someone's face, i could bicker endlessly about doing something i dont wanna do, or i could pray fervently for things to change , to become much better for me than they already are . But even if i do any of these , the beauty of being ME, remains untouched, un-imaginably extraordinary and charming; not for someone else, but for me , to feel within me, and enough for me to be proud of who i am. Maybe i follow the belief, 'Love yourself and you will know what it will take to love someone'. And today i grew a little more. I realised that life's mystical beauty will always exist whether im sad or happy, alone or with loved ones, it only takes a moment to realise Who i really am.

Living in different worlds

For all of our days on earth that we have lived, i suddenly have realised that there is no real world in which we , you and me, all of us are a part of. What i mean to say is that each one of us is living in his or her own little world, where every lie, every dream and every truth has different interpretations, and hence are subjectively viewed. Your world may not be starkly different from mine but different it sure is. And thats why, when i dont understand what the other person is doing and why, its becos i cannot really live in that world of his. I only have to understand that point of view as something that i cant relate to but i need to live with.
Having a great time at home off late. . feels like its been ages since i felt happy at home.
This is too random a post, but thats how things are with me these days, Random.